What my brain feels like when you’re autistic, and why I haven’t been writing much lately. I haven’t been writing much lately, as you’ve probably already noticed. Like I said before, my battery is nearing empty. Last night I was thinking about it, and I came up with a metaphor that describes what’s going on…
Category: Autism
The Obligatory Autistic Christmas
Christmas is often described as the nicest time of the year. For me, it isn’t. This piece explores how obligation, tradition, and neurodivergent nervous systems can turn togetherness into something draining rather than connecting.
Non verbal communication – The Nightmare!
It’s been a while since I last posted about how I perceive my autism. This time, a deeper dive into one of its biggest pitfalls — probably the biggest one for me. non verbal communication You know, that mysterious 80% of all communication that apparently happens through small muscles in our face and body. Those…
Things my brain does… Doomsday prepping
I don’t own a bunker. At least, not officially. What I do have is an autistic brain that refuses to stop at the government’s 72-hour emergency kit advice. My head instantly asks: “Okay, but what if the power is out for 14 days? In January? What if the lake bursts its banks? What if the…
FODMAP – Great, I’m hungry
The upside? I’ll probably lose a bunch of weight over the next four weeks. The downside? It’s going to cost me a truckload of willpower — and I’ll be hungry. A lot. Why? Because I’m on the FODMAP elimination diet. Great. Just great. FODMAP FODMAP isn’t some fancy wellness acronym slapped on by a Hollywood…
School: Autistic Edition — The User Manual I Never Got
Introduction The title is a pretty good description of how I felt about my school years: The User Manual I Never Got. I can vividly remember many times when I thought, “I wish I had known all of this beforehand.”“Can’t I do this year again? Because now I know what is expected.”
Meet My Brain: WTF… It Works HOW?!
Preface This is the first real deep dive into how my brain works. You’ll notice that I’m trying more and more to fit in my Brain Factory™ analogy into my stories. Enjoy! Visual Thinkers I’ve started reading a book by Temple Grandin called Visual Thinkers. In it, she broadly categorizes brains into two ends of…
Etched in Regret
I have so many regrets, in so many different situations. Situations I didn’t read properly, or where I missed certain social cues. Situations where I said something really inappropriate, offending someone in the process. Or the exact opposite — not saying or doing something when I absolutely should have. Again letting people down.
Kernel Panic #1 — The First I Know Of
And as I said earlier this week — it’s time to start the very first Kernel Panic post in this series. The earliest moment my brain crashed trying to make sense of a simple question. Honest answer, unexpected result — and the birth of my internal codebase. This is actually the earliest kernel panic I…
Your brain as a company
Imagine your brain is a company. It has a CEO who is constantly deciding what you do. Your company has different departments, located on different floors of your building — and some departments might even be in entirely different locations. And of course, all those departments are occupied by your co-workers: some work on-site every…